There are many thoughts going on in my mind these days which makes me feel uneasy. When I get up in the morning, the first thought that crosses my mind is that my life wont be the same in near future. Today my only concern after waking up is to get ready and reach office. But once I quit the Infosys and join the rest of the world, my first concern would be to find business for that day. Ofcourse, I will be sacrificing the insurance of a smooth life that a job in Infosys provides, but then the risk I am taking will provide me with something that I find missing from my life currently.
Today, my life revolves around Infosys. Around 13 hours is spent in office everyday which includes bereakfast, lunch and dinner along with work. Any contact with the world outside is through internet, access to which is restricted. Sometimes I feel like a frog in the well who claims to see the entire world, his world, in one glance. I want to get out of this well called Infosys where there are thousands of frogs like me claiming the same. I want to breathe in the open, do with my day as I please. I want to meet people, people from various backgrounds of life. I want to explore and exploit their experience in different walks of life which is not possible here in Infosys as I am continuously reminded that I am one of the software engineers, who knows a little about computers, among thousands of the same specie who inhabitate this place call Bangalore.
There is a saying "To get something, you have to sacrifice something". Once I enter the world I am talking about, I no longer will enjoy the economical security that a job provides. I know beforehand, how much money will be credited to my bank account and I can plan my expenditure accordingly. But once out I cannot predict whether I will earn one rupee or a lakh on any given day. This is not a problem at present as I am single. A bachelor can live out of suitcase if the need be. But I am soon going to be married, married to a stranger. I have no idea how will she react or what her behavior will be, if unfortunately, I am not able to earn earn enough bread. I can evade the responsibility that I have towards my self, but cannot stand the accusation of irresponsibilty towards my family. Here goes my dilemma.
Whether to foresake the sanctuary of a job for the family, or to forsake this artificial world to satisfy my own ambitions. I am currently thinking of the later and most probably will take that path. Only time will tell whether I took the correct decision or was culpable of irresponsibility towards family.
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